Mom's Journey Home
Mom’s dying is a new world for me. Sharing this experience is changing me – and all of us – in ways I could not have imagined. My Mom is facing the end making me more aware of the value of living each day to the fullest. Looking back over my Mom's life makes me realize how lucky I am to spend so much quality time with her. Watching mom experience her last fall and her last Christmas gives substance to the concept of “stopping to smell the roses.” while my heart aches and my mind searches for an understanding of living without my MOMMY.
Without her love for me during my recovery from a brain aneurysm, I would not have been the person I am today.
She can no longer care for anyone, so now its our turn to care for her. To comfort her in her last days. I feel so bad that I am not there to help her but I am thankful I have other brothers and sisters to be by her side. Wish I didn't live so far away but I do. I am happy my sis calls me to talk to Mom even though at this point so cannot talk but she can smile when she hears my voice. I TELL HER I LOVE HER AS OFTEN AS I CAN.
Mother's day is coming up and I'm so afraid for her to leave me even though i know she is ready. Mommy i love you so much.
Without her love for me during my recovery from a brain aneurysm, I would not have been the person I am today.
Mother's day is coming up and I'm so afraid for her to leave me even though i know she is ready. Mommy i love you so much.
I woke up this morning and I hate the reason why I'm going back to Ohio. As Marlon to puts my bags in the car and we get going to the airport I remember the text sister Jennifer sent to me. She told me that it's time to come home. Mommy is on pain medicine now every three hours and moans all night. She is getting pain meds every 3 hours. I look to the heavens and feel my daddy smiling down on me telling me he's ready for Mom to come home, he loves her and misses her. So with that thought in mind I smile and know that Mom is going to a better place. The devil tries to make me sad but my friend Emma said remember the good memories you have with your mom, don't let the devil bring you down by being sad. The memories you have with your mom will be forever in your heart. When you think of mommy don't cry don't let the devil win. it's a bright sunny morning and the ride to the airport this morning has been smooth sailing. I just know if my mom would have made the trip to Florida she would have been so happy. I guess now Mom will have to just look at it where I live from heaven.
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